Saturday, June 30, 2012

Causes of Fetal Death

Seven days after I gave birth to a stillborn baby girl, hubby accompanied me to see the doctor for a post natal check-up at the same time secured all necessary documents from the hospital to support my medical insurance and SSS maternity claims.

Upon reading the “certificate of fetal death”, the following causes were indicated in the “section 19: Causes of Fetal Death; (I have to refer to the internet to understand the medical terms written)
  •  Main disease/condition of the fetus is FETAL ASPHYXIA. According to the freedictionary Fetal Asphyxia is a condition of hypoxemia, hypercapnia, and respiratory and metabolic acidosis that may occur in the uterus. Among possible causes are uteroplacental insufficiency, abruptio placentae, placenta previa, uterine tetany, maternal hypotension, and compression of the umbilical cord. In my understanding this is a condition wherein the fetus is deprived with adequate oxygen.
  • FETAL GROWTH RESTRICTION. Accordingly fetal growth restriction or Intrauterine growth restriction refers to the poor growth of baby inside the mother’s womb and does not genetically determined achieve their potential size.  
  •  Main maternal disease/condition affecting fetus: CHRONIC UTEROPLACENTAL INSUFFICIENCY. I believe this is a condition wherein there is an insufficient blood flow to the placenta during pregnancy.
  • ANTIPHOSPHOLIPID SYNDROME. Is a the condition wherein there is a disorder in the immune system that characterized by excessive clotting of blood and the presence of antiphospholipid antibodies in the blood. You can read more about it by visiting 
  • POOR OBSTERIC HISTORY.  My doctor told me that the case of stillbirth (my 2nd child) is related to my first pregnancy. My first child was born pre-termed (36 weeks) and has a weight of 4.6lbs, meaning that there is something wrong with me. In case I’ll get pregnant again, I am a kind of patient that needs proper care. The fetus should be monitored regularly and I need proper medications to correct my present condition.
I’m hoping to get pregnant again. And I think I found the right OB, a high risk pregnancy specialist to take care of me. I was lucky that my first born was properly monitored by my OB back in Iligan City.  My 2nd pregnancy had proper monitoring only for the first 4 months (while in Iligan City) but after I got transferred in Cagayan de Oro City, it was really an agony for me finding an OB. I went to an OB with no ultrasound in her clinic, she’s a typical OB for a normal pregnant woman. If only I could turn back time, I should have gone directly to a high risk pregnancy specialist. If only I have known earlier.  But it was too late. All I have now is regret. At least with this tragic experience I learned my lesson and pregnancy should not be taken for granted even if you think you are physically healthy.

Wednesday, June 27, 2012

Visiting Our Little Angel

Yesterday, hubby and I went to visit our little angel at her resting place in Divine Shepperd Memorial Gardens. Our baby girl that I have prayed for to have after having our beautiful son in 2010, but had lost her last week. 

How I wished I can turn back time, and did this and that maybe this tragic loss did not happen. Transition period because of work, could be one of the reasons that made me into a weak host while carrying my baby. Maybe I was so stressed out traveling from Iligan to Cagayan de Oro every week for a month. But I have to erased these thoughts from my mind to be able to move on, blaming myself will not help me recover. I need to recover soon because I still have my 1 year and 7 month old son to take care and my husband, my pillar to look after.

I'm in my mourning period, and writing and pouring out my thoughts will eventually help me released  the pain that had locked in my heart. 

I did not imagine myself bringing in flowers and lighting candles in my child's grave, but it was destined to happen. Though it's very difficult to accept but I have no choice. God has reasons for everything and I don't question Him why this tragedy had happened to us. My faith remains intact no matter what. I know He will help me recover fast, and will give me another chance.

Monday, June 25, 2012

5 Things I Want to Do Before I Get Old

I’m so glad the BC Bloggers had come up with weekly meme featuring hot topics that bloggers had voted for.  Too bad I wasn’t able to join last week’s meme because of a terrible situation. You can read about it in my last two posts.

Writing for this week’s meme will somehow help me forget for a while the pain I’m keeping in my heart.

Okay.. so here goes..

First of all I want to have another child. After I have lost my 2nd child last week, I’m so determined to try again and hopefully to give birth with no complications next year. 

Second, I want to have our own house. I am hoping we’ll be able to build our own home two or three years from now, or earlier, if we’ll be able to sell our property at Fresno Subdivision in Cagayan de Oro City. Yes, we are selling our newly acquired 160sqm corner lot at Robinson’s Home Fresno Subdivision. The money we’ll get from the sale will be used to build our own home at Opol, Misamis Oriental.

Third, I want to travel abroad. Hong Kong and Singapore will do. Two years ago hubby and I had scheduled travel to Hong Kong and Singapore after getting promo fares from Cebu Pacific but wasn’t able to enjoy it because I got pregnant to our first child.  

Fourth, I want to eat lobsters. Honestly, in my 34 years of existence I wasn’t able to eat lobster yet. I heard from others that it was expensive. Yikes! I’m afraid I can’t afford it, sana may man libre!… LOL.. 

Lastly, I want to experience the following extreme sports/adventures that our country can offer. Para-sailing in Boracay, white water rafting in Cagayan de Oro, skywalk in Cebu, the plunge and cliff rappel in Danao, dune buggies and ATV ride in Puerto Galera, sky diving at Tanauan and mountain trekking at Mt. Apo. 

These are the things I want to do before I get old, specifically before I turn 45 meaning I have 11 years to try all of them. crossfingers!

Ay may pahabol pa, my weakness... I hope to improve my "english" oral and written communication skills.
How about you? What would you like to do before you get old? You can write your list too and share it to us by joining BC Blogger and visit our meme's host for the week ielenna.

note: photos not mine

Slides at the Kidy Park

I had a great time playing at the Kidy Park, SM Cagayan de Oro City for the first time. Ate Joy accompanied me inside, while mom is my usual camera woman.

I wanted to try the slides but I was afraid I might fall. Ate Joy helped me climbed on it, and guided me. I slide down several times before trying it on my own. Yep! You read it right I was able to slide down on my own but Ate Joy has to place me on top of the slide again and again because I do not know how to climb on my own yet.

It was so exciting and I even tried all three slides at the Kidy Park.

Slide Number 1

Slide Number 2

And Slide Number 3

I had so much fun. I wish Mom will be a slide for me but I know it is very expensive. So I guess I look forward for another play time at Kidy Park.

Stillbirth: Blame the Eclipse

I blogged about the Miscarriage and Eclipse last month because my friend had a miscarriage the day after the eclipse on May 21, 2012.

I had my ultrasound too that day and had very good news because I’ll be having a little girl soon. I was on my 28th week that time and everything was normal except that my baby was small for her age.

 I thought I was guarded by wearing black shirt the day the eclipse had occurred but I guess I was wrong.

Because on June 21, 2012 after I had my pre-natal and ultrasound I found out that my little girl inside me was gone, there was no heart beat seen or heard during the ultrasound. It was so painful and my heart had almost stopped because of the shocking news. 

The doctor told me that one probable reason the baby did not survive because of her size. Accordingly, she was too small at 32 weeks. 

I cannot accept the fact that my dearest angel had left us, maybe because I was at fault too, because I wasn’t able to take care of her, or I wasn’t careful at all. And just to ease the pain and console myself, I think I’ll be blaming this horrible event to the natural phenomenon called eclipse. 

I know that God has reasons why it happened. Why He had to take back what He had given us. No matter what, I still thank Him for giving us our little angel that will forever watch over us from Heaven.

To Our Angel Xyra

The day I learned that I’ll be having you in my life was one of my happiest days.
You are another bundle of joy that God had given us.
I was happier when I learned that God had given us a little girl.
A girl that I always wanted, from the day I learned that a life was inside me.
But with just two months more and we’ll be able to hold you in our arms,
An unexpected twist of event, you suddenly left us.
It was the most painful and heartbreaking for me and for your dad.
We hadn’t expected that things like this can actually happen to us.
I wish you had told us, why you have to go and leave us.
But only God knows why.

I am so SORRY my little baby.
Maybe it was Mama’s fault, I wasn’t able to take care of you while you are inside me.
If only I can turn back time…

The pain is unbearable…
But we have no choice but to accept the fact that you have become an angel that will forever watch over us.
I know God had reasons why He had to take away what He had given us.

Always remember you our precious angel

Sunday, June 24, 2012

Horse Back Riding

I'm a brave boy already. Yep that's what I am now. Because I'm not afraid to ride on arcade rides anymore. Mom was so excited to take my photos on my first horse back riding. Yep, I allowed mom to insert tokens and let the horse move with me on top. And it was one exciting experience. I had to hold tight because I'm afraid I might fall. 

Hurray I made Mama proud by showing to her I can ride arcades now..:)

Monday, June 18, 2012

Spending Father's Day

Last Sunday was Father's Day and we're able to spend the day at SM City Cagayan de Oro because Papa Jes was off-duty.

I really had fun riding the green elephant with Papa Jessie as the driver. Although my face looked shocked because it was my first time, but I did really had great time on this very special day. Love you Papa for everything!

Happy Father's Day Papa Jessie

Last Sunday we're happy to celebrate Father's Day together, because hubby was off duty. We're able to spend our time together malling at SM City Cagayan de Oro City.

But before that we took this photo together at home.

To My Husband Jessie,

You're the best Father to our son and the best husband to me. We Love you so much!

Jan & Xye

Friday, June 15, 2012

Back to School Giveaway: $50 Paypal Cash

Back to School Giveaway: $50 Paypal Cash

It is the month of June meaning it is time for school again to all the students out there. But before that, do you know you can have a chance to win extra dollars? Yep! Just by joining in the Back to School Giveaway you will get a chance to win $50. Joining is so easy. Just click the banner above for more information.

Thanks to the sponsors mentioned above for bringing in this giveaway. I do hope to win this one not for my own schooling but for my son in the future.

Monday, June 11, 2012

Overtime on Independence Day

Today is a National Holiday here in our beloved country the Philippines, to celebrate the 114th anniversary of Philippine Independence Day and I'm here at the office right now because I have rush reports to be done and my boss needs it tomorrow. Wonder why I am writing this post while doing my so called rush work? That is because it is already lunch break right now and skipping my work for few minutes will make my brain relax for a while.

Few more hours and I'm done with what I'm doing and will be going home and play with my son before the day ends.

Oh! By the way, google features Philippine flag as their doodle today. 

Isn't it cute?

Cool Blue Car Ride

This post is supposedly due three weeks ago but mom wasn't able to do the post for me. See, I still have my long curly hair, well in fact I already had my haircut. But anyway, it's better late than never. So here goes...

On May 26, 2012, I had a fun ride at SM City Cagayan de Oro, Mama Jan brought me there so I can try driving this cool blue car, Papa was at work that time and he wasn't able to see me enjoying my ride. 

I love messing up the steering wheel just like like driving a real car, I had tried doing it on the real thing (on Papa's lap while, but of course the car on stop), but mostly I do my practice on my Vtech Learn to Drive toy.

Maybe when I'm old enough Papa will teach me how to drive the real thing. :)

Sunday, June 10, 2012

T-Shirt for Father's Day

I bought this yellow shirt last year, intended for last year's Father's day but the size were too big for my 7 month old baby that time. But this year the shirt really fits him well. Xye is already wearing a cute yellow statement tee dedicated to his Papa. 

"Life is so Good when you've got a DADDY like mine", definitely true! Because life is so Good for me with Papa Jessie and Baby Xye.

Love You Baby!

Mama Jan

Thursday, June 7, 2012

I Missed the Transient of Venus

 photo not mine

I was hoping to watch the Transient of Venus yesterday, it was supposedly a once in a lifetime opportunity for me to watch it happen, because accordingly, the next transient of Venus will be after 105 years that will in 2117, but unfortunately I completely forgot it. Yikes! 

I guessed I was so busy at the office and wasn't able to go outside the building and watch it happen. sad! :(

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

My 2nd Haircut at the Barbershop

My first haircut was when I turned 1 year old, Mom brought me to the Barbershop for a nice clean cut. After that mom had trimmed my hair by herself, until last week

On May 26, 2012, Papa and Mama brought me to the barbershop after we attended Uncle Philbert's birthday at Igpit, Opol Misamis Oriental. One of the guest thought I was girl because of my not so long curly hair. That was the reason Mom insisted to drop by at the barbershop.

Anyway, I was hesitant at first to sit alone on a barber's chair but after Papa gave me my favorite Ferrari Car Toy to play with, I settled myself and left Mr. Barber to do his job. 

I wasn't afraid with the clippers sound too...

My curly hair is almost gone..

And this is the final look, Mr Barber sprayed water on my hair and styled it like a K-pop star. lol..

Looking for white? Mr. Barber is wearing a while polo.