Wednesday, June 27, 2012

Visiting Our Little Angel

Yesterday, hubby and I went to visit our little angel at her resting place in Divine Shepperd Memorial Gardens. Our baby girl that I have prayed for to have after having our beautiful son in 2010, but had lost her last week. 

How I wished I can turn back time, and did this and that maybe this tragic loss did not happen. Transition period because of work, could be one of the reasons that made me into a weak host while carrying my baby. Maybe I was so stressed out traveling from Iligan to Cagayan de Oro every week for a month. But I have to erased these thoughts from my mind to be able to move on, blaming myself will not help me recover. I need to recover soon because I still have my 1 year and 7 month old son to take care and my husband, my pillar to look after.

I'm in my mourning period, and writing and pouring out my thoughts will eventually help me released  the pain that had locked in my heart. 

I did not imagine myself bringing in flowers and lighting candles in my child's grave, but it was destined to happen. Though it's very difficult to accept but I have no choice. God has reasons for everything and I don't question Him why this tragedy had happened to us. My faith remains intact no matter what. I know He will help me recover fast, and will give me another chance.